
Unwinding Urgency: How I’m Healing My Need to “Be There Already”
Unwinding urgency doesn’t mean I stop wanting things.
It means I stop attaching my worth to the speed at which they arrive.
It means I stop treating the in-between like a punishment.

reclaiming outsourced power
For most of my life, I’ve unconsciously given my power away.
I’ve projected it onto mentors, spiritual teachers, male authority figures… onto anyone I perceived as more ahead, more enlightened, more worthy than me. And every time I reached out, trying to be seen, trying to be recognized as powerful, intuitive, or gifted, and they didn’t respond exactly the way I hoped: I spiraled into shame, self-doubt, and into an endless loop of trying harder to prove myself.